Year 2, 11Aug12

The time has come to reconfigure our household thus tackling Alicia's closet. Up to now, Cathie has slowly cleaned Alicia's old bedroom. First her roll top desk was sold to a couple of college kids then other things followed. Her closet was thinned out but a signifcant amount of memorible clothes had remained...Alicia's first set of high heels, her worn out duct taped light green keds, her black and white sweater etc. These emotional pieces had remained. Well, most of these clothes has now been donated. Only a few things remain...her keds (can't seem to get rid of them), her hanging jewlery box etc. My clothes have been moved from the office closet into her old closet. I guess this was a matter of time. I had avoided the topic of cleaning out Alicia's closet because I saw it as a field full of emotional land mines. I was not sure there would have ever been a good time to do it. The impetitiuos at this time was Cathie wanted the office closet to put the art/project supplies and re-arrange the office space makign room for her art projects. Hats off to Cathie, she plowed right into it. We spoke the other day about Alicia has not come to Cathie in her dreams for quite some time. I must admit, that is true for me as well. I can nto recall the last dream I had in which she was part of it. Slowly, bit by bit, I fear I am losing her. I realize I will never lose her as she is still a part of my being. But her voice & her scent are fading from me.