Looks like we're doing OK. We've past the anniversary of Alicia's death. No more "Year of Firsts". We're on to the year of 2nds.
While I was driving last week, I accidentally called Alicia's old cell phone. I reached her voicemail. I was startled and momentarily incapacitated...frozen. Where was I? What day was it? Then I felt sad...very sad. I had to pull over for a little bit to recompose myself. I was leaving downtown Oakland at night. Probably not the best place to pull over, but I needed it. I have kept her cell phone active to this day. She still receives text messages and voice mails once in a while. I do not have the fortitude to read or listen to them. I still as if I am invading her privacy. Funny I am. But it just feels right.
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