I need to get better speaking about Alicia and her accident. I find when I speak about her, I begin to tear. The more I talk about Alicia and her accident, my eyes really well up with tears. I'm not sure if I will ever feel 'in control' and maybe control is just an illusion.
Yesterday, I had dinner with a few friends after work one of whom did not know about Alicia. He asked about the girls and I steered him to conversation about Jasmine. I then asked about his daughter who is in 2nd grade. He eventually asked about Alicia. The person sitting across from us just sat there and waited. I matter of fact stated Alicia had died in March from falling off a cliff. He stammered a bit trying to judge the situation. I leaned in and assured him it was the truth. I relayed we were struggling but going to work has helped me.
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