We survived the Tamsical HS graduation! The ceremony was tastefully understated. Alicia was mentioned in name twice. They had an vacant seat where she would have sat with a large bouquet of flowers and her tassel. They had more cranes draping the stage wall as well. So unless folks were clued in on these signs, they would not have noticed.
During the ceremony, I kept looking up at the trees waving in the wind looking for a sign that Alicia was there. I imagined that she was there looking down upon us and all of her classmates. Jeeze... that was hard. I cried several times through out the ceremony. Just seeing the open chair with a bouquet and the tassel sent me in a tailspin. I recalled my graduation and how I felt so on top of the world. Alas...Alicia never experienced this feeling.
The graduation was really hard on Cathie. She kept it under control during the ceremony, but when she was handed the bouquet afterwards, that did it. It all started to become undone. We will probably skip the Redwood HS graduation Thursday. While there are kids we'd like to see walk, it will probably be too much.
On Monday, I met a friend, Dave after work just to talk. Dave is also part of this 'club'. He is in his second year since his daughter died. She died pretty close to where Alicia died. We talked about a lot of stuff. It was nice just to be able to talk and not worry about any awkwardness. I hope we will continue to just talk when possible.
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