Day 44, 04May10

Death. An unwelcomed visitor has left it's mark upon our family again today. It has been only 44 days since Alicia died. My father died today, 04May10 at 12:10pm after a progressive and painful bout with cancer. He has been suffering greatly since about October 2009 with pain. I comprehend he is in a much better place now, but I still feel really sad.

While I am happy for him to move on and catch up with Alicia. I am miss them both. We're still working our way through our emtions revolving around Alicia, now it is compounded with my dad's death. I'm not sure what is happening in the universe right now, but it is pissing me off. In the first 5 months of '10, R-ee dies in Feb, Alicia dies in March, and now dad dies today. Is there a lesson to be learned here? Why all three within such a short span of time?

I rebooked my flight home. I'm flying back from Paris tomorrow (Wed). instead of Thursday. Granted there is nothing I can do at home right now. But I feel I need to be there. I am not sure I can concentrate tomorrow if I did stay.