Day 48, 08May10

Yesterday was Cathie's bday. I struggled with the thought that Alicia would not ever be here again for her bday. I began to project Jasmine's bday party on Saturday and Alicia's bday. It is hard for me to fathom that she is no longer around. While I do not expect her to return, I have a hard time accepting the truth.

Jasmine and I went to buy Cathie a new I Phone on 07May10. Afterwards, we went to Sundance to find some handcrafted jewelery. She commented that she does not have an eye for what Cathie would wear. This was Alicia's thing. She kept wandering around so we went to Anthropology. At first, Jasmine did not want to enter. She remarked this was Alicia's favorite store. After a little bit of discussion, we went and she bought some bubble bath for Cathie.

Today, Jasmine went to school for a half day. I picked her up and went to pick up Becki from SFO. Afterwards, we dropped off Jasmine to hang out with friends prior to her rec dance. Becki and I went to BevMo and spent close to $XXX on wine and accessories. We then went to Whole Foods and picked up the food. We dropped off both at Fingers and Toes around 5pm. We returned home and shared some wine with Cathie. At 6:30pm, we took Cathie to the salon where other friends had congregated for a private surprise mani & pedi party. Sharon W., CatherineW., Elka E., Sudha D., Lyra, & Becki. I stayed to serve them wine and some food. Everyone appeared to have enjoyed the party. Afterwards all except for Sharon came to our house to finish off the evening.

Why do I enjoy hosting surprise Bday parties? Maybe it is a control thing. Cathie I think enjoys the attention, but she may also be embarrassed by it as well.

Today was Jammin's bday party. Her real bday was last Sunday, 02May10 while she was in Sac;'town for vball, Cathie was in Tahoe finishing her Outdoor First aide course while I was flying to Paris. She had 5 friends come over for a mani party at Fingers & Toes. Cathie stayed with them, while Becki and I prepped the food. When they returned, they ate dinner while we cleaned up. They watched Avatar while Cathie, Becki and I ate dinner. After we finished, we had cake then the girls went to see a movie. Cathie dropped them off while I dropped off Becki.

Sunday could be difficult being Mother's Day. We'll have to wait and see. I purposefully did not plan anything so that we could pay it by ear.